tick tock

did some calculations and found that..at the rate my results n methods r going.. i hv approximately 3500 words or less for my introduction and discussion each. That’s too little!! After i discuss the theories..and implications of that to the hypothesis. what else do i hv left? 300 to write the conclusion? *sob sob*



Worst come to worst.. i guess i just hv to put more tables in my results section to summarise those F-ratios.



anyway, what did i do today? u guessed it.. my ever so exciting life *sacastic tone*. graphs n writing of coz.. what else? oh! i made chilli beef and cheese pies.. The beef was definitely too hot though…



anyway, i was scrolling through friendster, realised that mmm.. yup. been ages since i see most of these ppl. Looking at their pics made me realise how much time has passed and how much things hv changed since we were naive, innocents 13 year olds.



Crap..i still cant find the s.d for my graphs! what’s wrong with spss?oh yeah..i forgot.. it’s SPSS..everything is wrong =(



2 more weeks of working..and i get 3 saturdays off. I am sooo looking forward to my saturdays again!!! hehehe.. wonderful.. Not that i dun mind seeing Brandon, Max and Josh though. Max was so sweet…he gave me a flower last week!!



I guess i am proud of those 3 kids.. Well, since Max is new, i cant say much abt his progress (except clever and fast learner he is).. The other 2? Amazingly…



That reminds me.. i better go through what i hv to teach tomorrow again. Especially Max- he gets bored easily.



Sometimes u wonder… Lord, why are they autistic? they are clever children, who are so lovely… with autism, it hindered their learning. How great could it be if they dont hv autism.. how much will they learn? How much will they advance? Unfortunately, these questions will be left unanswered.



Cute things happened though.. Like how we suspect christine’s student hving a crush on her.. Lol.. Or how we got kicked n scratched by them- yup. ok.,that’s not a cute memory.



i like my job. i like finding ways to help these children learn. And i guess..to be creative and be flexible. I did want to quit after this term to concentrate on my thesis but realised that.. hey.. after the 3 weeks break…. the thesis will be due by then.. So i think i will remain for another term.



btw.. our hse internet is sort of irritating now. hving to pay so much and limit our upload and download speed constantly AND hving the internet down so often.. that’s not good.



i really shld get back to my correlations-last part of stats. Getting tired of looking at numbers.. and after that. i hv the verbal analysation and couple of drawings to look at.



and? after that? the depression essay time.. i sort of hv a vague idea how to write it.. so i jus need to read more and start writing!



i think it is baileys time…..

procrastinating

almost time to cook dinner.

Finished the graphs and is now writing up that segment. After that, it will be to sum by correlation studies.. look at verbal analyzation and then the kids’ drawings.

i wonder if i am going back at the end of the year.. the main advise is not to.. but if irene’s wedding is on, i am gonna go back. If not, staying here will be alright too..afterall, i hv to go for the postgrad interviews (if selected) and i get to spend more time with alan. The only setback? I want to spend time with my family!

as usual.. i tend to think of what to do after this sem. ah.. I hope the grad sem date next yr will be late feb instead of early march. That way, i can plan the albany trip for my family..and it wont interfere with the postgrad timetable..alan can come along too. Not going to feel really comfortable driving to albany myself..although if i hv to do it, i will.

oh crap.. do i need s.d for the histograms? *grumble*

i hope i know what i am talking abt in this section. I really need to finish this and work on my essay..actually, i am looking forward to work on the essay since it will take my mind of the same stuff that i hv been looking for sometime.

heard adam got a 9.5 pts for his presentation.

3,2,1 i better finish off this section and then cook..

zzzzz

2pm now..and my eyes r heavy. I just took a short nap but someone still feeling tired. Decided not to attend the presentation tutorial today, just so i can finish up what i didnt do yesterday.

Eyes feeling puffy…need to get an ice pack later man. Staring at the computer and getting 5-6 hrs of sleep every night is making me looking haggard 😦

the cat disapeared. Probably found a good home. Hope he didnt injure himself again.

the sky looked so blue today. Yet i am stuck at home in front of this computer. I wish i cld do some shopping..go out and get abit of that beautiful sunshine.

My turn to cook tonight. Menu? Rendang, chilli prawns and Nutty Asperagus. The prawns were cheap! 13 bucks a kilo. What a bargain. It’s rare for us to hv seafood.. Been hving quite alot of chicken lately though..so a change will be good.

Passed the referee forms for peter to do yesterday. Asked him if he felt my stress levels r too high. he replied “it isnt out of the anxiety scale yet” .. that’s the sort of answer u get when u talk to a psychophysiologist.

Speaking of peter..velda is awfully stress, hving to redo her stats. Can totally understand how she feels though, having been through the same stage with helen. Wont supervisors make up their mind?

Watched prince of tennis just now.. the baby ryoma is so cute.. and that epi is so touching! Esp when we found out Najiroh gave up his tennis career for his son. That’s just me being a silly romantic again. Then again, i need these to keep me sane.

i really shld get back to those graphs. It’s getting boring.. but i need those, if not, i cant write up that segment!!!!

Errands day

Was in uni this morning. The guest lecturer made sense except she really shld hv given more supportive evidence on how ‘neurology and psychotherapy’ relates to each other (i.e any other before and after treatment change in biochemistry other than PTSD will be good). doesnt help when chris lee gave quite an one sided lecture on PTSD as well.

Let’s see, i went to the bank- and the ATM wasnt working! Bankwest better not charge me 5 bucks for using their teller, since it is their fault that the ATM isnt up!Went over to the chancellor building to apply for transcript (each one cost 15bucks and we hv to pay 50 cts to certify for one!! And all they need to do is to photocopy the transcript and chop it! Money grabbers). Then i went to grab lunch for Armand and alan… too bad, no first choice option for armand since they haven cook the honey chicken yet.



Head over to Helen’s office for her to stamp my APA student membership form.. She tried to reassure me that ..at least i m progressing n sort of on track. BUt I ONLY HV 5.5 WEEKS LEFT!



Worried abt chee, she haven started on her work yet. what can we do.. we can only try to encourage her.



I am suppose to finish 3 sections of stats today.. I better do it man. I even skipped gym so that i can sleep.. am so tired that i cant focus. Wondering what’s wrong? Then again, if i cant finish my work, i really shldnt go to gym!! That is suppose to be my incentive. Luckily Nikki is on holiday today..and Karin will be takign the body move class..oh well. Wil go next week.



Getting sian again.. will write more if i get tired of looking at my work.


night falls

how time flies when u hv pile of work to do.. work goes up, pile of work on table doesnt seem to go down!!

listening to mtvs.. looking through ‘errors between piaget and raven’s matrices tasks”- wondering why in the world did i make things so hard for myself? grrrrr… Mr piaget, y r u not alive to answer my questions? 😦

let’s see..tasks for tonight. Finished up the error section, going on to strategies.. look at nice stack graphs -which took me one day to do! 😦

*panic attack*- breathing deeply. HoW IN THE WOrLD can i FINISH all these in TIME??

Friday- last day for me to complete this results stuff. I hv to get on to do my ‘elderly depression’ essay.

oh..went to gym just now. New moves in step class.. well, horrible song choices, with only 2 songs out of the hr of exercise that i like. Good moves though. Wish they will bring body move back.. want nikki back!!!!!!! Good news, they r going to change the step platforms.. good. i dont like stepping on dented plantforms esp since i saw a male instructor breaking one before..ewww..

alan.. next rm. is he playing games or doing work? i think its work. i hope so anyway. jackson playing games. armand studying for a test. Our household is offically a stress zone in 2 out of 4 rooms at least.

spoke to my beloved ruthie this afternoon online. Horrible stories of share living..makes me want to praise the Lord more for letting me know 3 wonderful guys to be my hsemates.

I miss peggy.. my gran..lppc… What’s wrong with me? Here in perth for like 4.5 years and i am missing home? power of being in 4th year psych.

vel asked me out for lunch tomorrow.. i will prob not go. oh gosh, i hv never been so anti-social in my life!! Maybe there is a singapore daphne and perth daphne… Then again, with the deadline so close, i cant sit down in peace for lunch!!!!! Comfort in my room, close to my pile of work..watching the clock go tick tock… tick tock..*shudder*.

The best time i had tonight? Alan calming me down and just holding me. hving a good conversation.. haven talk to him for ages..

Does that mean i am not interested in my thesis? Nah. Not that. Just the tedious work..acadamic life is just not for me

testing 1, 2, 3

well well, glad to hv this place to whine. jackson n myself in the hse at the moment.. think he is fast asleep. me? looking at this numbers thinking :’how shld i put it in the table’.. ah..



been feeling homesick lately..more like i want to go home, hv an simple life of working and resting. Is academic life really for me?



mum screamed at me for asking her to write a letter.. hrpm… so much work to do for post grad application-another deadline looming.



Wondering if peter will write a good referee for me.. haha.. helen as well. crap. i hope none of them think i am THAT bad in handling stress. I am fine ya? I just like to keep to myself and focus that’s all? What’s wrong with that?

tables n graphs n numbers

my eyes r shutting. Looking at these pile of paper beside me, in front of me, behind me..even on my feet. Never ending story. Well, at least i sort of got started writing. Not fast enough though.. the deadline is approaching fast and i am sill finishing up the first section. crap. how am i ever going to reach the deadline? It’s impossible at this stage.

Oh.. wonder if i shld go to gym in the afternoon? i really should.. but getting lazy.